Oh well
It's been more than two months, but there is such a reason for this.
Last time I wrote, I was writing about a guy named David. I was saying I was scared of what was coming up between him and me.
less than 24 hours later, actually, the very same day.. we started going out together.
It's been more than 2 months.
Really? Really. All I can say is that despite everything.. I love him. I don't know how long this will last. All I know is right now, I love him and want to live my life with him. That's all that is important.
He's still not as independant as I wish he would be and I'm playing the bitchy whore again but it's still probably the best relationship I ever had. At first it troubled me so much because in many many moments he reminded me of Charles. He still does I guess..
But it won't happen, not that way, not any soon, anyways.
Speaking of Charles, I stumbled upon his msn profile. It's been a year since I last truly had a converastion with him. Joséane had told me he had changed, he was back to what he was before, I could be friends with him again. Never.
I read is profile and ended up crying out in frustration. Because the guy I knew, was friends with, the man I loved and went out with for a whole year.. is dead. Simply. He doesn't exist anymore and he never will.
I read his profile and was under the impression I was reading about a stranger.
Other than this, I dropped my job at Canadian Tire, and am now working at Hallmarks, which is much better in pretty much every way, except much more complicated too.
And the Vamp LARP turned to shit because of 3 major bitches there. Because I am against parents forcing their kids to go to private schools, I apparently am an "uneducated adolescent without a brain", a "nuisance to society", and i have "no better arguments that those of street punks" and also all my ideologies "have been proved wrong coutless times before"..
also "everyone hates" me and my boyfriend should "open his eyes and realize" how "mediocre" I am.
Do I need to specify they are going to hell and this is personal business that I will attend to... personally?
Death to my enemies: The Vendetta is declared.
Last time I wrote, I was writing about a guy named David. I was saying I was scared of what was coming up between him and me.
less than 24 hours later, actually, the very same day.. we started going out together.
It's been more than 2 months.
Really? Really. All I can say is that despite everything.. I love him. I don't know how long this will last. All I know is right now, I love him and want to live my life with him. That's all that is important.
He's still not as independant as I wish he would be and I'm playing the bitchy whore again but it's still probably the best relationship I ever had. At first it troubled me so much because in many many moments he reminded me of Charles. He still does I guess..
But it won't happen, not that way, not any soon, anyways.
Speaking of Charles, I stumbled upon his msn profile. It's been a year since I last truly had a converastion with him. Joséane had told me he had changed, he was back to what he was before, I could be friends with him again. Never.
I read is profile and ended up crying out in frustration. Because the guy I knew, was friends with, the man I loved and went out with for a whole year.. is dead. Simply. He doesn't exist anymore and he never will.
I read his profile and was under the impression I was reading about a stranger.
Other than this, I dropped my job at Canadian Tire, and am now working at Hallmarks, which is much better in pretty much every way, except much more complicated too.
And the Vamp LARP turned to shit because of 3 major bitches there. Because I am against parents forcing their kids to go to private schools, I apparently am an "uneducated adolescent without a brain", a "nuisance to society", and i have "no better arguments that those of street punks" and also all my ideologies "have been proved wrong coutless times before"..
also "everyone hates" me and my boyfriend should "open his eyes and realize" how "mediocre" I am.
Do I need to specify they are going to hell and this is personal business that I will attend to... personally?
Death to my enemies: The Vendetta is declared.
posted by Pavlova @ 9:01 PM
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