Keepin' it together

Why can't I be like her.. sophiscated with medium lenght hair and pretty shiny eyes that aren't empty like mine, and the artist stereotype, tall and slender and curly red hair..

Why can't I be perfect...

But something happened, an angel came down to see me I think this week end.. and it was movie-picture-perfect... And this is the only thing that made sense for so long that I'm afraid it's just an illusion..

How pathetic is that? But at least now I feel like I am worth something... I've haven't felt like this in.. years. Or did I really ever feel that way..

I wish there were more nice people.. but it would make it less interesting and special..

*sigh*

I've never lost my faith