Bad me

Woah, haven't written in 4 days, I'm so bad. I'm sorry. Well well well. Thursday.. I had this overly boring Introductions to Arts & Litterature thing. Oh well, whatever, not all classes can be fun. My friday Phys Ed class is just as bad. Our dance teacher doesn't even have a dance formation *sigh*. Whatever.


Friday night I've seen Charles.. and I slept over at his home. Stupid-emo-bitch-other-girl was sooo mad because I was there. Haha, in your face you slut! Like he'd choose her over me, anyways. I'm so much prettier, nah! Haha, I feel so bitchy today. She cracked a few times, starting yelling at him and acting like a little crybaby.

On Saturday I've seen this guy I've known on msn for.. well I guess it must have been a year now. *Sigh* He has cute eyes. And shit happened. Surprise, surprise. We're talking about me, aren't we? Haha. Just hope he won't have a crush on me. Please, guys, don't complicate things, they are already crazy enough to start a soap opera about my life (and I'm serious).

And today well, I was suppose to see this guy I haven't seen in a year, but once again he didn't call me back (Surprise, surprise) *sigh* so I saw Charles and Mako and my sister and we listened to a nice movie and here I am listening to Katy Rose singing in my hear about senseless things and chatting carelessly on msn with people I spent five years with and might never see again.

Things are strange, aren't they?


Drugs stopped working when I was born
But all the fairy dust I breathe
Is doing nothing to relieve
The strife of broken Autumn leaves in the sand

I'm still high on the music
As my inner child cries
For she may lose it

And the incense in my eyes
Can't save the sin between your thighs
Because you stabbed me with your lies
You're not the only one that's broken

Whore, fuck your drugs
I introduced you anyway
You're a slave
Spun undone, I met you in an alleyway
And I'm never okay

Cos I'm pretending like I'm keeping it together
I'm pretending like I'm keeping it together

My bones are scratched and so forlorn
And all the Prozac that I take
Is only lulling me to make up
This forced smile that is fake for all the doctors

But I'll get by
For the music
Stand as an object
So they can use it

So go snort your loved white powder
I'll just play my music louder
And get my drugs from the counter at the pharmacy

Whore, fuck your drugs
I introduced you anyway
You're a slave
Spun undone, I met you in an alleyway
And I'm never okay

Cos I'm pretending like I'm keeping it together
I'm pretending like I'm keeping it together

And they'll never know

Katy Rose - Keeping it together